I don't necessarily want the her back that I've been married to, and I pretty sure she doesn't want the me that she's been married to either.
I want my family more than I want to be 100% happy. I know this may not be right, but it's my choice. I'm not sure how many people have watched the series Vikings, where Ragnar Lothbrok's life is chronicled, but I know many more have watched Game of Thrones. Well, since I've got into both this past year, and completely caught up, it's made me reflect on my own legacy.
I want my family! That's my legacy. When something's not great, I want to fix it. Not point the finger. But that's where I seem to be right now.
My wife is too busy from 6AM-11PM. With everything she can think of. I've asked to meet with her for the last 3-4 months to talk about moving forward, our needs, what works, what doesn't, that sort of thing. She keeps blowing me off, and not in a good way. Her mom comes over twice a week to do housework, yardwork, small projects, you name it. So, my wife has never had to realize that she has to do all this alone if she's pretending to be divorced. She's stayed busy, as to not address what's going on. There's the dog. There are the kids, pinterest, instagram, FB, and her trying especially hard to connect with our teenage daughter. Then there's me at the apartment.
Last night when she picked up the kids I said, "Nice to see you again."
Her response was, "Oh, ok."
I want my family more than I want to be 100% happy. I know this may not be right, but it's my choice. I'm not sure how many people have watched the series Vikings, where Ragnar Lothbrok's life is chronicled, but I know many more have watched Game of Thrones. Well, since I've got into both this past year, and completely caught up, it's made me reflect on my own legacy.
I want my family! That's my legacy. When something's not great, I want to fix it. Not point the finger. But that's where I seem to be right now.
My wife is too busy from 6AM-11PM. With everything she can think of. I've asked to meet with her for the last 3-4 months to talk about moving forward, our needs, what works, what doesn't, that sort of thing. She keeps blowing me off, and not in a good way. Her mom comes over twice a week to do housework, yardwork, small projects, you name it. So, my wife has never had to realize that she has to do all this alone if she's pretending to be divorced. She's stayed busy, as to not address what's going on. There's the dog. There are the kids, pinterest, instagram, FB, and her trying especially hard to connect with our teenage daughter. Then there's me at the apartment.
Last night when she picked up the kids I said, "Nice to see you again."
Her response was, "Oh, ok."
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