XSR88

[Muestereate]

I tried my first spray of this last night at home.

Amount: 1 spray, I'm supposing the default dilution of 12.5 per spray
Time Evening
Activity; Just watching TV. Some Science fiction with some romance elements like most shows.
Goal: I think this is sexual
Pathway, I'm guessing this is a neurosteroid at this point.

The initial hit was a strong urge to grapple with arms and body and to take down someone for sex. This passed as I resisted the urge to leave the house and wrestle a woman to the ground.

I won that battle but after a couple of hours felt fatigued and beaten. I went to bed but it felt like I'd been roofied. As if someone had one hand in the small of my back and another leading my other hand forward into bed.

About 7 or 8 hours later I got up and was still woozy. I felt like someone had taken me to bed, had their way with me and slipped out the door. Still a little horny. I may have had an erection the entire night. For all I know I was raped by my subconscious imaginations but I don't recall. This was a wrestling type of burnout and I was overpowered.

I have been doing steady pregnenolone and have been feeling the opposite of burnout. However, I applied 60ug of neno and instead of its usually strengthening and balancing it acted oppositely. On the pherotruth forum I saw that quite a few guys got depressed. I've never gotten that but this time It felt like a shot of weepy estrogen. i did not weep but I was sad and beaten and for a moment thought I might have finally known what the girls were talking about when their hormones wax and wane. Neno has three pathways and the 88 altered one of the enzymes, These enzymes are pituitary signaled I believe and with that rather shallow reasoning, I come to the conclusion that it is a sort of neurosteroid instead of cortical. The hangover is cortical.

I could be way-way off on my thinking, neuro mechanisms is just how I categorize basic mental processes.

I will try this again at one spray but my initial thinking is to order this in 2ug a spray and work up from there. This may be good in smaller doses for domination type blends. You could probably push me into another nuclear power plant or over the top of a WW1 trench with this stuff and I would just allow you to lead and push me there.

[Ildergreier]

Is XSR88 for men only, do you think?

[Muestereate]

Well it affected a man, Thats pure selfie so I imagine it will do something to a man if a woman wears it. But can a womans blend keep the woman dominant enough to not be the one to cave if she actually wears this stuff? It's possible because of the hormone shift I noted above. A lot of people would say it might betafy but it wasn't a nice beta aura as I've come to understand beta. My beta is still authoritative. This is submissive to me. ANd, its not that introversion type of submissive that sometimes happens with to much of a male enone product. This was more like the feeling after surrendering to a whoopin. Have you ever given your all and still lost?

I just tried it with two sprays of fantasy, I'll report back here even though this thread should just be 88. I am not getting the creative fantasy mindset. I'm a little happy but still whooped. I guess, soft whooped. a bit of fantasy bubbly. So far this is better, like a playful whoopin. Like Ok, you win, go ahead and do me. Hmm, I also feel this way after making a big purchase for an SO, the fight, the loss, the submission. Maybe it could be steered by a woman right into the expensive corner of the department store.

Should have stuck to 88 just for science's sake, my bad.:(

[Ildergreier]

Sounds like a cool combination XSR 88 + Fantasy, actually.

[Muestereate]

The 88 didn't hit me nearly as hard last night. In fact, I've been wide awake except for a short nap for 24 hours. maybe it was all the tea I drank though.

My Mom went into the hospital late last night so I went to visit and see how she's doing. I did 3 drops Neno about 1030 am and 2 micro glops of nude alpha under a couple shirts. No real reactions from any of the nurses or techs that was anything I wouldn't expect. They were courteous, relaxed professional and accommodating. I had nice conversations with older ladies, no attraction, just hospital pleasantries.

About 4 hours later I got to the coffee shop and before I went in I did one full spray of 88. This is my first interaction with others. I let it dry down for about ten minutes and went in.

The owner of the coffee shop I go to is often with odds with me out of principal. He actually agreed with me that the roaster I ordered had made significant improvements in his roasting over the last year and a half. I ordered a pour-over of Vulcan, a blend with Chocolate and toffee notes. I asked about the Aeropress and ordered one of those also even though he said something flattens out using this method. He was dead on, any brightness or sparkle was flat. He remained super polite. He's a Literature Masters so I asked what works he'd read by Solzhenitsyn and I rattled off my own reads to refresh him and went on about the man's last novel, a rewrite of the Russian revolution called the red wheel. I explained how the man's phrasing had grown over the decades of his writing career from the simple and harsh, One Day in the Life of Ivan Denisovich, Cancer Ward's autobiographical metaphor for Stalin's Great Purge and the covertly written expose of Lenin's gulags in The Gulag Archipelago.

But nowhere have I seen the beauty of phrasing as I have in Solzhenitsyn 3 volume The Red Wheel. History being sucked in a whirlpool fashion through a crack in the lake and a woman's hopes swirling away with them. The search for an all-encompassing love to give one's entire life to, having only one prospect before a young man called war. Phrasing so beautiful and deep as to cause pause before 2400 pages. Tommy's eyes glinted in the corners.

While I had my coffees and Espresso Bark, My little mousey young friend walked in with a heavy knitted cap with huge ear flaps, Her winter clothing had a nice fit as far as winter clothing goes and cute fur rimmed boots. I called her over and we talked, and we talked, and we talked. She wouldn't leave. She just stood there. I offered her a seat a couple times, maybe three and she just stood there. After nearly an hour I saw circles forming under her eyes and I knew the 88 had beaten her and started to try to excuse myself since I couldn't excuse her. Finally, I finished my second coffee and she was very disappointed to have me leave. It was if she was expecting more. I gave her my phone and offered to take a look at her computer that was broke. She just wouldn't leave, wouldn't sit down, wouldn't have me move over to her seat on the other side of the shop. Just stood there.

Using this in social situation was quite different than solo.

[XSteveO]

Jasmin had said that P88 was a less pure synthesis of P93. Any similarities detected?

EDIT: P88 is a less pure synthesis of P93. Its a very interesting molecule and especially how its made.

[Muestereate]

I found an old 93 thread. Well the burnout repeated and the lighter dosages I'd agree with. As far as Rapport, I almost added to my post that in my conversation with mousey, My focus barely strayed from her. Interesting possibly. When she walked in I noticed her hat, the only other person that took my attention from her was a guy in a similarly styled hat. Other than him, everyone else was inconsequential.

I may have gotten some imprinting, I got an unsolicited text from Mousey, She hunted me down on FB??? On 93, nobody talked about imprinting or more important to me, persuasiveness, if you can call the effects above persuasiveness. I'd worked through some troubleshooting steps on her broken laptop but told her it might be time to buy a new one. She's a Master Student, I have no reason to believe she's awash in money but she popped for a new one.

On my above post, I noted I felt submissive because I felt out of options and beaten. While talking computers with her, I eliminated options and perhaps she felt the same way. I don't recall persuading people in this manner before this, I would consider it heavyhanded even when honest.

Something in this sort of submission seems to be at odds with what I read about 93. Like 93 it's powerful but It seems to say, "You are out of options" just do as I say.or just come with me. Instead of pull it's polarity is push.

[Muestereate]

More reading on 93. No Blondes, Mousey is light olive skinned brunette Italian. And way too young for me.